give and receive

It's hard for me
Personally
In my personal opinion
To accept praise

I have no issues with giving it
With giving things, thoughts, feelings
Love
Affection
Affirmations
Declarations of (_____)
.......
I just can't take what I dish out

It's hard for me to believe I am
worth the words/time/consideration
After years of being unworthy
At least being told I am
I believe it to be
In my personal opinion
True
An incorrigible fact

So when I
Myself
Me
Am reciprocated
I can't
Believe it

So I squirm, I wriggle inside
My body rejects that notion as niceties
Mere politeness as they pity me in my incompetence


IN PROGRESS